Answer

Many times people kept pestering me with questions (or even a remark) that I never expected them to ask. My response was always not organize.

So after a few minutes of reflection, the next time people asked such question,

Q:Fiza, Interior Design is such an interesting course, why do you quit, is it difficult?
A: You're competing against gifted (true genius) students. You're like an average and below compared to their designs. And I didn't quit, I got kicked out. (sure they wouldn't know how to react after hearing that har-har)

Q: Fiza, I saw this girl who is way talented than you, she designs this (random typical stuff)
A: Why do you think I'm doing law?

Q: Fiza, you STILL don't have a boyfriend? Oh gosh!
A: Cuz I'm too good for anyone.

Q: Fiza, stop playing with your Playstation/watching TV/sleeping/doing nothing/Eating and go out socialize with your friends.
A: Stash me some money and I'll be gone in no time.

Privacy Settings.

One of my friends' biggest concern is Privacy. They would take all necessary measures to secure their privacy. It's fine, but I felt that it's getting more ridiculous when they were angry when their privacy weren't 100% secured. You're displaying information in a social network - purely for the public to see. It's supposed to be open for the public view. You may control a certain extent of displaying certain information by making it available for certain people and all that, but you can never gain full control of it. If you think you can - man, you must be out of your mind.

Here are some easy ways to secure your privacy 100%.

1. Don't post any heated comments if you think you can't handle it. If you think you can get away with it - you're dreaming.
   
2. Stop taking pictures with your friends, that way, you're guaranteed not having your friends uploading ugly pictures of you.
   
3. Don't display your information at all.
4. Don't have Facebook.
   

Easy ain't it?

Don't get angry when people you're not close with trying to make an attempt to comment on your wall - it's on that person's news feed, he/she may thought that he/she has something to share. If it's not welcome, have the conversation in private...like YM conference or SMS your friends. If you plan on having a group outing with your friends - PM them.

Remember that the purpose of facebook is to get in touch with friends, families and expand your network. If you don't want it, than don't get involve. Get in touch the traditional way.

Privacy is never guaranteed 100% when you're displaying it in public. Just bear that in your mind.

Happy reading.

Wedding Bells Tralalala...

Last Saturday, I went to an old friend's wedding reception. We're not close or anything, but since she invited me personally and I was free on that weekend, I decided to attend the wedding. I took a bus from Malacca to Kuala Lumpur and drove straight to Subang Jaya.

The wedding was ok. Though the mother seemed somewhat snobbish or tired when I congratulated her on her daughter's marriage. Lack of enthusiasm, but I let it passed me and concluded that she may be tired. The Hall was rather empty even though it's nearly 2pm and I kinda feel a tad sorry for her. Mental note to myself: Have a small wedding!

The empty hall was decorated minimally. Nothing grand. I don't really mind, in fact I respected her for not caught up in the Bridezilla Madness (spending more than you can afford+wonderful reception= unhappy debt++). The theme was white and pink. I went to congratulate my friend and her husband at the stage and thanked them for inviting me. After that, I marched over to the buffet table happily. I scanned the hall and there was no one I know from school. My friends can't make themselves free due to work or unavoidable circumstances. I scanned for any other potential tables that I may have any connection with, but none. So I sat and ate alone on a table for ten. I thought the wedding was ok but only one mistake was made. I went alone. I felt awkward.

The newlyweds came and accompanied me for a while, the bride said, "Hey, I kinda feel pity to see you eating alone here." Urgh! Go away!

I swallowed and smiled, "Well, it's not like my schoolfriend gets married everyday, I have to come and see your Big Day, right?" (Genius comeback har-har)

"Where's your boyfriend?" she asked again. Urgh! I know she's trying to be nice and keeping the conversation going but must she asked me that?

"Never had any."

"OMG! No Waaaaayy! Are you serious?" as if she had found a unicorn. Sheesh!

"Yeah, big mystery huh?" I replied.

She didn't know how to react so she smoothly excused herself. Then the awkwardness starts kicking in. I finish eating up and bid my farewell to the newlyweds and the parents. Thanking them again for the invitation. I rushed to my car and decided to go on a shopping spree in Amcorp Mall. I bought a heart-shaped necklace. The heart-shaped pendant was made from metal and it was empty inside. Irony, just like my heart.

As I drove back to Bukit Jalil, I realized since when attending to a wedding alone is a pity? So what if I'm alone, I'm a free independent woman. What's wrong with that? Heck, even I don't understand.

Eye Doctor Ligitty Split.

I notice that my right eye has been twitching for almost two weeks now. The ol' superstitious believe would mean that there shall be good news coming to my way. However, as I browse over the net, I learned that it was normal, and it may pretty much stress or tired-related.

Now, regardless of that, I too realized that I can't look over sunlight. Could it be that I'm becoming a vampire? Lol. Every time when the sun ray is just too strong and direct, my vision would get a bit blurry and I would have a splitting headache seconds after.

So yeah, need to see an eye doc soon.


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I don't know why I'm writing this...I feel like it's a story of nothing...But...I have been talking nothing throughout this blog...Lol. Ok, head is starting to spin, I'm hitting the bed now. Ciao guys.

Where do you stand?

I went to JJ earlier by bus. I saw a scene that kinda saddens me. I know, I should just leave these people alone, but I can't. I saw this girl in the bus whom I thought was very sweet, with her tudung and all those decent clothes on her. She's cute too. Now, what really draws my attention to her was that this girl did not maintain any eye contact with all the guys who were mesmerized by her charm. Her eyes were glued to the rusted bus floor, as if any contact made will cause her eyes to bleed or something. Impressive, I thought.

After a few minutes of a long bus ride that almost seemed like it was forever, I turned and looked for that sweet looking girl - wondering what she's up to. And to my surprise, this girl was already all over her boyfriend (He was in the bus earlier). Lentok sana, lentok sini. Man, it saddens me. If she was not wearing a tudung, I would not care...Maybe if she was wearing a tudung but does not pretend like she's a saint...I wouldn't bother...It was because she looked like a saint that I'm terribly bothered. No wonder la there are many problems arising, ko pon gatal juga! Arrghh! Dah ler project image like that. Haih.

At this point, I remembered a friend who recently went through a rough breakup just because of her principles. I recalled those people who either held their beliefs to the very core and those who aren't. I have more respect to them more than to the kinds like you. These people have taken up their stand and sure aren't bloody hypocrites like you. I know, everyone is a hypocrites, but they don't pretend honey.

Oh blah-dee-fool

I want a sincere friend in my circle of friends. When I learned that you like a friend of mine and realized that you're just using me to get close to her, it saddens me. Do not use me for your own agenda. I do not like it. If you were sincere, I would have been happy for you, but since you're not...*rolling eyes* Adios!

A piece of thought

Some people just love saying "I love you" way too much and way too soon to their better half.

The next day you broke up and the next few days you're in love with another. How quickly a human heart changes...And I sometimes wonder to myself, Do they even really meant it when they say "I love you"?? How can you switch loving someone else with all your heart at such a quick time?

Neither have I say nor even received an "I love you" from any members of the opposite sex. I don't live a sad life, I'm just never been in a relationship, that's all. Yeah, a few guys I flirted and what not but never once I would pop the word "I love you" to them. I know this much to myself that love is such a strong word as for I have never felt nor truly experience it. I always thought that love was something that last for an eternity (like your love for your family, it will never die, no matter how much you hate them), if you can moved on, than---well you're just infatuated by your ex...Right??

However observing others changing partners within that circle of friends itself, it just leaves me to wonder...Where is the specialty in that? I leave this for all readers to enlightened me with this question of mine. I'm not here to kutuk anyone, I'm just asking...as this is just a piece of my thought. I mean...Shouldn't you at least consider what you really feel before popping that 3 strong words?

It's your birthday honey. =)

Happy birthday, honey. I wish you nothing but all the UNHAPPINESS in the world. You certainly deserve it. You toyed with my heart just because of yours got played with. Yes dear, I'm still bitter about what you had done to me.

What did I ever do wrong to you? Why am I the punching bag for your frustrations? Why the fuck am I too nice to even give a chance for someone undeserving like you?

So my dear, thank you for taking advantage of my feelings. You are the reason why women become materialistic and shallow.

Esh! Tensionlah!

During raya, all my cousin and young aunt ever talked about was love, love, love. I just sit quietly and carefully cut the long beans awaiting to be cooked by our mothers at the kitchen. Yes, our views are so different between my cousin, aunt and myself that I don't fathom on rebutting their visions on love. This song describes exactly what I feel that time.

Transformation of A Butterfly

"Young people are so rude. They are selfish brats." a good friend of mine complained.

I nodded in agreement, recurring recent events with my juniors and I. My juniors were very noisy at the back while my lecturer were having his discussion with us at front. It snapped me pretty good. Come on juniors, if you don't want to respect your seniors, it's fine, but don't you ever treat your lecturer like a carpet for you to step on. It's not nice my dears.

"They are spoiled brats! Fiza here thinks that people like them will change as they grow up and face life experience, I don't believe that will ever happen, like my spoiled brother." another friend added. I sense anger and annoyance in her voice.

"No way Fizaaa. Once they are 15 and they are still brats, they will forever be brats. They will never change." my friend commented.

This time, I disagree. My reply to them was weak, but this is actually what I wanted to say;

Do you believe in good people turned bad?
Do you believe in those people who committed sins to repent and change?
If you believe that they can change, than why can't these spoiled brats change?
Some of our juniors, are damn right rude, I agree. However, they are young and their journey are just starting...
I have to admit, there are people who never change...and yes, this is because they have never been bitch-slapped by reality. Constantly being sheltered by loved ones, making them dependent.
But I have seen people who have change for the better. They grow up because reality hits them. Don't put them in the same position as you. Everyone is different.

I understand why my friend said that people can't change once they are 15 and above. The older you get the harder it is to change, it's true but it's not impossible...=)

Lost in the Crowd

I'm lost. Everyone seems to know what they want to do with their life, and I don't. Someone told me that I should do 'art' and to be honest, hearing it makes me angry. I have tried that, and it failed miserably, remember? I appreciate her for acknowledging my talent, but she did not realized that my passion disappears when I convert a hobby into a career. Why? Because there's no essence and specialty in my artwork anymore. This makes me unhappy and not content. Plus, you can't rush art.

However it strikes me to ask this question to myself, "Who am I? What am I going to be in the future?" and no answer obtained.

I know what is my nature like. I'm too nice to be a lawyer. I'm too soft to be in the police force. I'm not a perfectionist to be in the conveyancing field. I hate long speeches because it makes me bored and sleepy. And God knows how much I hate politics and reading newspapers--I'm just full with emotions that I think more with my heart rather than my brain. Thinking back, I understand why my friend told me to do 'art.' It seems I lack in passion, interest even motivation to be someone in the legal field.

But I MUST belong somewhere in the society. I'm no genius, but I'm not stupid either. I joined a lot of law events in hoping that I would find the right path. I became the Emcee so that I built my confidence and improve on my public speaking skills. I joined the publicity division because I want to improve on my people skills. So many things to improve and clock is ticking fast.

I know this much that this attitude of mine must change if I want to be in that legal society.

This is what I call Love

"You're in love with me, why?" asked the girl curiously.

"You're different, you're not like any other girls I've met before..." the boy said, looking deeply into her beautiful round eyes.

Bzzt!Bzzt! Change of transmission!

Hello?? You're not like any other girl he has met before? What? She has Three hands and green scaly skin with fins on the cheek? C'mon....

Let me tell you why you feel that this girl is 'the one' and why she's different from the rest...

She's different because she's outside from the scope of your ordinary 'taste'. Everyone has their own favourite traits in the members of the opposite sex. You like a certain body type, stylish, outgoing, intelligent etc etc. When she's outside from the ordinary pick, it'd be a breath of fresh air. She's 'original' because she's not what you're used to. That is why she differs from the ones you've met in previous life. However, it's God's will to open your heart to accept a person that is outside your 'pick'. She's the one because God has opened your heart to accept her. That is what people call 'Jodoh'

Am I irrational?

I am sick of watching lovers displaying their affection in public. I'm talking about kissing and rubbing each other in the library. It's an eyesore. Take it in the car at least if you people can't afford to check into a cheap motel. I understand, they are so much in love that they just can't get enough of each other---but seriously, in a library?! I believe there's always an appropriate place and time for you to display your affection. I know you have the right to do whatever you want, but hey, I also have the right to a peaceful life.

All I'm asking, please...Don't do it anywhere on campus grounds. Your main priority in enrolling into a higher institute is to get education. Ever heard of work hard and play hard? Yeah do that. Work hard on campus then play all you want outside. I won't mind.

However, apart from my heated view, I can't help myself to think whether I am being irrational? So tell me your views. Leave down your comment. Should I just let them be - they're in love or these people should just learn to control themselves.

Question of the week

Would a guy be flattered if a girl plays a guitar for him?

And she's back...

Hey readers,

Can you tell if I'm really into a guy? (No) Want to know? (Err...No!) Haha too bad! I'm still gonna tell.

It's easy really, to know if my infatuation is more than just a monkey-love crush. I would conceal all evidence that I like him. I will never ever, ever, ever, ever tell him he's good looking (If I did, it would be followed by negative remark just to make him pissed) Why? Just to make the conversation longer and see his defensive/pouting side (ah, so cute) and lastly....I can't FLIRT around with him!

If I flirt, tell him that he's good looking, and move on with life - I'm not serious with him.

Love, Love, Love.

Under Construction

Dear readers,

With many recent incidents happening in my life, it just made me numb and alive almost at the same time. How crazy can you get? I had deleted most of my posts because I felt the need to do so. I'm a person who never satisfies with anything, it's really a normal scenario for me to get bored with things. I'll continue to ammend and reconstruct everything until I'm satisfied with the final outcome. Until then. Patience, patience...

Multimedia University's Law Moot Competition 2009/10, The Semi-Final Round.