I'm lost. Everyone seems to know what they want to do with their life, and I don't. Someone told me that I should do 'art' and to be honest, hearing it makes me angry. I have tried that, and it failed miserably, remember? I appreciate her for acknowledging my talent, but she did not realized that my passion disappears when I convert a hobby into a career. Why? Because there's no essence and specialty in my artwork anymore. This makes me unhappy and not content. Plus, you can't rush art.
However it strikes me to ask this question to myself, "Who am I? What am I going to be in the future?" and no answer obtained.
I know what is my nature like. I'm too nice to be a lawyer. I'm too soft to be in the police force. I'm not a perfectionist to be in the conveyancing field. I hate long speeches because it makes me bored and sleepy. And God knows how much I hate politics and reading newspapers--I'm just full with emotions that I think more with my heart rather than my brain. Thinking back, I understand why my friend told me to do 'art.' It seems I lack in passion, interest even motivation to be someone in the legal field.
But I MUST belong somewhere in the society. I'm no genius, but I'm not stupid either. I joined a lot of law events in hoping that I would find the right path. I became the Emcee so that I built my confidence and improve on my public speaking skills. I joined the publicity division because I want to improve on my people skills. So many things to improve and clock is ticking fast.
I know this much that this attitude of mine must change if I want to be in that legal society.
However it strikes me to ask this question to myself, "Who am I? What am I going to be in the future?" and no answer obtained.
I know what is my nature like. I'm too nice to be a lawyer. I'm too soft to be in the police force. I'm not a perfectionist to be in the conveyancing field. I hate long speeches because it makes me bored and sleepy. And God knows how much I hate politics and reading newspapers--I'm just full with emotions that I think more with my heart rather than my brain. Thinking back, I understand why my friend told me to do 'art.' It seems I lack in passion, interest even motivation to be someone in the legal field.
But I MUST belong somewhere in the society. I'm no genius, but I'm not stupid either. I joined a lot of law events in hoping that I would find the right path. I became the Emcee so that I built my confidence and improve on my public speaking skills. I joined the publicity division because I want to improve on my people skills. So many things to improve and clock is ticking fast.
I know this much that this attitude of mine must change if I want to be in that legal society.
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